Be Clay
" You are the Potter, I am the Clay! " Like me, you may have heard this phrase multiple times and even said it yourself. Whether you are in the church or not, this has become a popular phrase; that eventually in some cases became a cliché. However, has it crossed your mind what it really means to say " I am the Clay"?When you hear this phrase, you may imagine the positions of a “Potter” and “Clay” in this relationship. Understanding that the “Potter” makes and molds the clay to the desired finished product. You understand that the “Potter” knows the process needed to obtain the product's intended purpose. You may even imagine a “Potter” molding clay on the Potter’s wheel into a bowl. It is only possible for the clay to become a bowl if it cooperates with the Potter. The clay has to understand that its duty is only to be molded. The “Potter's” purpose will never come to fruition if the “clay” is non-cooperative.
Here on the “Be Clay” podcast, we will talk about how to accept and endure the duty of clay, as we allow the Potter to perform the same. We will explore the positions of “The Potter” and “The Clay” and the dynamics of each role. In the past years, I have learned and am still learning the roles of “The Potter” and “The Clay”. I have come to the realization that I was not fulfilling the role of “The Clay”. Instead of allowing “ The Potter” to mold me, I was fighting back and trying to mold myself. You can imagine what a mess I made! If you can relate, know you are not alone. “You are the Potter, and I am the Clay” will not be just something you say, but you will learn and understand your role and “ Be Clay”
Be Clay
Redefining Success: Personal Growth and Resilience
What if your biggest fears were the very things holding you back from achieving your dreams? This episode of Be Clay opens up with a candid reflection on my struggles with consistency and the fear of meeting audience expectations. Drawing inspiration from Simba's journey in "The Lion King" and biblical lessons on obedience and trust, I unpack the importance of persistence and focusing on the present. You'll hear about the challenges I faced with my YouTube channel and how I've managed to maintain a regular podcast schedule despite past setbacks.
Let's dive deep into the emotional landscape tied to self-doubt, fear of responsibility, and the paralyzing sense of rejection. I share personal stories about how past experiences and family cycles shape our thoughts and actions. Through these reflections, I underscore the necessity of breaking free from negative self-talk and trusting in the gifts we've been given. Learn about the critical role of personal growth in shaping not only our future but also that of our children, and how resourcefulness and determination can help you overcome financial constraints in the pursuit of your dreams.
Finally, I'll take you through my evolving career aspirations, from engineering to contemplating law school, and finally finding a calling in life coaching and financial advising. A pivotal conversation with a life coach program interviewer brought to light the profound impact of fulfilling one's purpose. Listen to how a liberating hair transformation taught me the value of adapting and accepting outcomes beyond our control. This heartfelt episode is a celebration of resilience, personal growth, and the importance of pushing forward despite life's unpredictable nature. Thank you for being part of this journey with me.
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Hello, hello, hello, and thanks for tuning in to another episode of Be Clay. I am so appreciative that you decided to allow me to be a part of your day today. I thank you. I know that you could be listening to any other podcast that's on here, but you allow me to be in your lineup and I appreciate that. With all that being said, I cannot believe that we are in July already. This is this is crazy. This is this is just this is crazy. This is this is just it's it's amazing. And what's more amazing for me is the fact that I actually have a month worth of episodes, not only just recorded because I can record and make content, but I actually did some work, edited it and made sure that it was published. That is big for me.
Speaker 1:One of my fears of actually starting this podcast past that I have not been consistent and continuing, and one of those things was actually my YouTube channel. I have a YouTube channel, youtube channel. Actually, these episodes are actually also uploaded to my YouTube channel, so you can see in description um, the link is in there and you can go on YouTube, get it on YouTube, as well as any other, whatever platform you're listening on, whether it be Spotify, iheart, apple whatever you're listening on, you can also listen to it on YouTube. And so I started a YouTube channel in 21 and I was, and that took a lot. And I started 21 because at the same time, I was doing the business with paparazzi and things like that. So I figured I could integrate everything and to make it easier to be more consistent. However, I only have two videos up there and I have plenty of content on my computer, but it's not. I haven't, I didn't. Some was started. I started the editing process and I didn't. Someone started, I started the editing process and then I didn't finish it. Somebody didn't even start the editing process at all and so it wasn't published and I didn't want this podcast to be the same.
Speaker 1:You know, with podcasts, you know there's, you have there is a specific schedule. Now with YouTubing, there's a schedule. But with podcasts, you know there's, you have, there is a specific schedule. Now with YouTube, there's a schedule, but with podcasts, you definitely have a specific schedule. Right, and people be looking for it. There's multiple podcasts that I listened to and just like uh like I listened to be Simone, and so hers is on Monday and then her video drops, so Tuesday, and so every Monday, I'm like oh, it's Monday, uh, be Simone's. You know, pocket new podcast is going to be up, and so I understood that that will be a expectation coming from me, and it was like can you, can you be able to meet the expectations? That was a fear of mine. Can you be able to meet the expectations that people are going to be once you put it out there that people are going to be looking for the next one, the next one, the next one, the next one on the schedule? I started trying to do it on Mondays, but that didn't happen. As you can see, I uploaded two on last week or something like that, and so it's been a journey.
Speaker 1:It's been a a journey. It has been a journey, but I'm grateful that I have, I'm grateful that I am going through this journey and I'm learning to enjoy the process and this journey, even if I mess up, to still go and still do it and not give up. That is where I am right now is learning not to give up. No matter what happens, don't give up, and so thank you for going through this journey with me.
Speaker 1:It's it's not easy. It's not easy because I am constantly, constantly and I'm working on it. But I'm constantly, constantly and I'm working on it, but I'm constantly looking at my past of, I guess, maybe say failures or things that I've started that I did not finish, and you know, and I'm I'm trying to really just let that go. It is what it is. The past is the past. You know, take a step from the Lion King. When you remember when Rafiki hit Simba and he was like ouch, that hurt, he said, yeah, it hurts, but that's the past, even though it was five seconds ago, basically it was the past and I'm trying to really embrace that part that let the past be the past, no matter what it was, that the past be the past, especially since the fact that who my father is, who's my father, my source? He's told me that all things work together for good to them that love the Lord. So, no matter if it's my fault, he still allow things to work, things to work out for my good. And as long as I just continue to just do what he, when I'm obedient, then the outcome Is not my, is not my job, right, the outcome is his job. All he told us is to be obedient and then he have to do what he say he was going to do with our obedience. So, um, just like the walls of Jericho, right? He told him, give him some specific instructions and he said that you'll be able to take over that land. So, as long as they were obedient, then the outcome of them being able to take over that land is his job and our job was, and their job was just to be obedient.
Speaker 1:It has been difficult at times. I'm really learning this because, just like with my YouTube channel, which I haven't been consistent in something that I knew that God has really called me to do, I have allowed a lot of thoughts, entertained a lot of thoughts of what people want to listen to me, if people want. You know you're going to try and be like everybody else, you're going to be a fluencer like everybody else and this, any other, and, um, you know all types of things of, of negative thoughts, discouraging thoughts that I've just been entertaining every day and even though, even though that I have received confirmation after confirmation through multiple people and I'm not saying like necessarily with the confirmation was through prophecy or something like that, the confirmation that I received, what did I receive? That I needed to be on, why I need to utilize the platforms. That um that is available to me, which is the you know with with YouTube, is um, and you know this podcast, you know end up, you know, in this podcast, you know the all these platforms was because not on purposely, okay, not on purposely, you know, I will just be in a conversation with some people, right, with people, and somehow my story comes out, just a story, and it just and I'm not just maybe a testimony. Somebody might talk about something and I was like, yeah, and I've been through this and I just began to explain what I went through.
Speaker 1:One thing people understand and know about me and I said it before that I'm transparent. I will have no problem of telling you what I've been through and how I got to this, this place that I'm in, or how I obtained things like how I got here right. So if I was in a ditch, right, and I got out of that ditch, I'm going to show you and tell you how I got the ditch. I'm going to tell you how many times I tried and it didn't work. I'm going to tell you the different ways that I use or that I tried and how it like. I'm going to tell you I'll be very, and want to be very descriptive so that you can see hey, I try to climb out this way and it didn't work. And then I found a rock or something and then it broke, like I'm going to explain it so you can understand that I didn't just wake up here. I'm going to explain it so you can understand that I didn't just wake up here, that everything that I, every place or every level that I mastered, or everything that I have done, it was a process. I didn't feel like it. I might not feel like it, I might have been, you know, listen, I'm going to tell you Because one thing that lacked in my childhood was transparency, and so I didn't want that to be, you know, as now.
Speaker 1:Because, especially for those who are in God right, we are in God and people just say, well, just pray about it, everything will be fine, just pray about it, and it's just like it, everything's going to be fine, just pray about it. And it's just like, what else, right, you'd be looking for? Well, sometimes you need to learn how to pray about it. I mean, he already told us that we pray, we don't. We know how to pray, and so now I feel like I want to be able to tell my story, or we may say a testimony, but so if you're going through something similar, then you would know how to at least how to start right, at least have a starting place, a foundation, a template to be able to get out the same situation, and which is why I'm so transparent.
Speaker 1:And so, in my transparency, people especially if I was talking to somebody, let's just say I'm just going to, let's just say we only had an hour together, if that, and they like oh, I need some more, and I don't have anything else to give them. And even though we may exchange phone numbers or exchange some type of contact information between the schedules of either one of us, we don't always go back to that point. And so when I was um, so the Lord was like okay, elisa, you're going to have to utilize these platforms, You're going to have to. First of all, it's just a YouTube channel. And I thought about the podcast. But first it was just a YouTube channel. And I was like okay, fine Cause, it didn't cost anything to do the YouTube channel, right, all you got to do is push record and it's free. And so you don't have to worry about, like, oh, I don't have no money for everything else, like it's free, push the record button and just talk.
Speaker 1:But I have entertained so many Negative and I can't always say it's really the enemy, because it really was me. You know, I have this, I have this and we're working me to the Lord. We're working on it, we're going to therapy and everything else is we're working on it. I'm really working on myself and everything else is we're working on it. I'm really working on myself.
Speaker 1:And so, because for some reason, I have this notion that it can never happen for me Now, even though I understand that God is no respect of a person's, but I still feel as though it would never happen for me. It happens for everyone else, but it never happens for me. And you know there's multiple people that stories where people was just walking around laughing or something, and then somebody heard them and they said, oh, you should be on the show, like stuff like that. Right, Like they just was. Every day, brie Babineau was saying that she was, you know, just doing what she usually always do and she, her video goes viral and now she has a record deal, right, like things like that. It's just like okay, that will never happen for me, right? That, right, like things like that. It's just like, ok, they will never happen for me, right, that's what I was thinking. It will never happen for me. It never happened. It never happened for me Then.
Speaker 1:But then I have to remember there were times where there was opportunities that did happen like that in my life, where I'm just being me, and even one of them was it wasn't the best part of me as far as I was concerned, um, and I people still was like, hey, let's go, let's work with it with record, even with record deals, and I was just like no, because I felt like I'm always look like it can never happen for me, like I get scared like and paralyzed, like it would never happen for me, like I can never be a success. I can never be that person out there. But this is out there, but this is, but in reality, but this is what he called me to do, this is my purpose, like it's just not something that cause I don't desire. I really do not desire to be famous, to be out there. You know, a celebrity.
Speaker 1:Some people grow up and say I always wanted to be a star. I knew that I had something in me and I just always, you know, wanted to be an actor Like it. Just people, just a lot of stories out there that people they always wanted since they was a child. I did not want it and maybe because I didn't want the responsibility of being out there, I felt as though, and then I think you know a lot of ways, I didn't feel like I was good enough to be out there. But I never, you know, wondered In my local community, because what's in me is too, what's in me is too Like it's too. I mean, I can't be conformed to this one little box. I do have to spread it out with the world Because it's too much in me. I have this big, old, gigantic mouth. Everyone know, if you know me, I have a big mouth and this big mouth cannot stay right here because it's too loud, right Like.
Speaker 1:I do need to spread out my wings, I do need to increase my territory and I do need to stop fighting God when he opened these doors and closed them on my own, because there's times that we close the doors on our own. We always talk about other people closing doors, but we don't never really talk about the doors that we close when he opens up, when he opens up a door, and we close and slam it right in his face when he opens up a window, and we shut it and then and lock it Right. And it's like you know, time and time again, we, we, we and the Lord have been having multiple conversations and I'd be sitting up here like God, I need money, what should I do? What job should I get? And he's like, at least I just gave everything. Everything you need to make milk, it's in your hands, I gave it to you, it's in you. I just need you to do it, and not only just do, but trust me and stop really trusting yourself. And that's the problem.
Speaker 1:I'm looking at my own insecurities and that's what it is. I have so many insecurities for so many reasons, for things that people have said. That is, you know, as a child, that is embedded in me and I need to let those go. I'm working on really, just like, let those things go, like, come on, like. It is what it is. And I say because I got, and this is why I feel like I said in the first episode that I'm God he was not playing when he gave me six kids. I think I wouldn't be so determined to really work on myself if I didn't have six children.
Speaker 1:It's me understanding the cycles and the things that I am like. If there's multiple things, that the thoughts that I have, I knew that came from my mother. There's thoughts that I have that I understood that came from my father and, as you know, conversations through my family, I understand you know my grandmothers, um, and everything else. I understand there's some things that I came from them. Else, I understand there's some things that I came from them and so I understand of cycles. And so I look at my six children and I'm really seeing the impact that I have on my children by not doing what I am purposed to do, because my children are from me. And so if it was, if there's greatness in me, there's greatness in them, and people will see my children. I know I mean they can meet my children every last one of them for five minutes. I mean five minutes. All I need is five, never really need five minutes. And the next thing you're leaving. I know they, they, they are running down trying to find out who is the parent of these, like I'm trying to figure out, because it's amazing, what's in them? Where did it come from? Right. And so there's greatness in my children, but if I don't get this together right, if I don't get this right, then the greatness that is in them will be in vain, because we will never live up to our purpose. And that is a fear for me. A real big fear is that I die, not being empty, that I die with my purpose.
Speaker 1:Because I did not write the books, I did not write the songs, sing the songs, I did not, um, uh, you know, I just didn't do everything that I was supposed to do because I continued to entertain these negative thoughts. I don't envy I won't say I envy people, but I would say I wish I had that bonus that so many people have when they just, you know, even with that, I just knew I was supposed to be a star and they just went and did whatever, and every time something happened. Because I'm, like, petrified of rejection, um, because of so many, because I was rejected in so many ways as a, as a young child, um, so I'm petrified when it comes to rejection, but it's like but so what? Right, um, just go. If it'll happen one way, it happened another way. So we're learning that, um, I last year, um, last year I was, you know, it was one when I really was starting to say, okay, lisa, we're really going to buckle down and we're going to get this stuff done Right.
Speaker 1:So, of course, you know, I ain't got that much money. So we got to figure out how to do these things that you're called to do with the little bit that you have, right, how to rub your little opinions together and figure out what to do on the budget. Cause, for real, for real, we can do anything on the budget. Like I said, youtube is free. All you gotta do is push the button. It don't cost you anything to push the record button, right, use your phone that you're already paying the bill for. So right, all those things. Like you, I'm not. You know you don't necessarily have to use the camera. You know, use your phone camera, use your laptop camera that you already have all these different things. Let's, let's get it together and let's stop making excuses.
Speaker 1:And so I did not finish school because you know things happen, right, that is one of the things that I've started and this is that is. It is heartbreaking, like I'm every time I think about it. I'm I'm heartbroken that I did not get my bachelor's yet. I am 37 years old and I did not. Bachelor's. Now, I know it might be 50, 60s, whatever your roles, and y'all have it, and I understand that, but it's still heartbroken for me because this is, this is I mean, I wanted mine's. Oh god, I was determined not to be the one to take so long. My mother did not no, I think she got her associates. My dad took 15 years before he got his bachelor's and I was determined to not to be the one day start on time and finish on time. That didn't happen, and so I kind of even though when it didn't happen, like right on time, I was like, ok, ok, it's going to be a little longer, but I'm still going to get it done.
Speaker 1:But when I was at Temple and they told me you can't come back for another four years, when I realized I couldn't finish, I I mean, it destroyed me. It did I. It destroyed me. I was. I was so hurt, um, and that was uh, uh, how was I? Because all my kids was here. So maybe about 2015, however old I was in 2015, because I can't do the math right now, right, but I know I wasn't 30. I was, I think I had a couple of years before I was 30. And so it was just like, all right, all right, all right, all right, all right, ok.
Speaker 1:So then I said, well, let me try somewhere to finish somewhere else. But then I couldn't finish somewhere else. I did do Liberty for a semester, liberty University Online for a semester, but I couldn't finish because I owe Temple and so, since I owe Temple, I can't get my transcript. And so I was at a standstill after that one semester, even though that semester was pretty good. But I was at a standstill after that one semester. End of that semester was pretty good, but I was at a standstill. There were some things that were supposed to happen for me to be able to pay simple, and that didn't happen, and so I gave up. I literally said that's it.
Speaker 1:Because at that time it wasn't just me working to get my bachelor's and for accounting, because my Plan, you know my plan was to get my county to get my accounting, to get my degree, to get my CPA and to go to law school and to become a lawyer Right, and a business lawyer. And it took something in me to finally get that plan. You know me and I had multiple conversations back and forth. It was like, no, this is what this is, this is the pathway that I want to take. So I was excited because I always, I did always want to be a lawyer and, um, everyone knows, I watch all the lower shows. I'm always at the bait. I'm this like we just I just knew I was going to be a lawyer.
Speaker 1:I just it was a lot of things that I just knew that I was going to do and be there because I knew there was a lot of things that I knew that I was good at. Some people are only good at one thing, but I was blessed to be good at multiple things. Like there was so much in me that I can excel, that I can excel at not just one thing, and it just so happens that everything that I was good at is all that I was good at, is all, uh, it could be intertwined right In a way. And when I mean that is because not only like, uh, I'm a great, I am a good advocate, um, for people, right, um, I am, so that's you know the lawyer, and so do. And then the accounting, the, the, the math, the, the, the, that the business mindset is in me, cause I look at the whole picture. Uh, when people think about it, they'd be like, well, this is what I said. No, I don't just look at the consumer side, which is my side, but I also look at the merchant, the business side, automatically. So I look at both ways how it can do like a just to make it happen. Right? Also, the counseling Now there's counseling and everything is financial and counseling there is.
Speaker 1:You know, counseling is you know, because people think about counseling. You always think about sitting in, but you can counsel people and financially can counsel people in business. You can counsel people in many different avenues. Right, there are multiple people who do that and I oh Jesus, I had that was, I think I did as a minor in counseling, I think I was doing that as a major, I mean, you know, I mean getting a degree in that.
Speaker 1:So these was this, this was the pathway that I'm like OK, this is what I was going to do, because this is in me to do, and so I wanted to do, and I definitely wanted to do it for small businesses, for sure. Um, I seen myself doing it for small businesses and to really advocate like, hey, you could do it this way, especially when it comes to taxes, right? So how they can? You know, hey, you don't have to pay taxes over here, you could do this or whatever, finding ways to save them money and then also necessarily be their advocate in that, because they can get swallowed up real quick. So that was the pathway that I was, you know. Yes, it took a minute to figure it out, but then, because you know, actually, when I grew up, I wanted to be an engineer, but, understand, then I had to, after going through at the maturing and paying attention. What I love about the why I wanted to be an engineer was because I was.
Speaker 1:I was never satisfied with the surface. I was never satisfied with the surface. I got on my mom's nerves when I was younger because I asked her how does a doorknob turn? And she's like Lisa, all you got to do is turn the doorknob and that's it. No, I said, no, mom, how does it turn? And she said and I just asked her 5,000 times, well, she don't know.
Speaker 1:Eventually, because I wasn't satisfied with her answer, I took the doorknob apart. Yes, I did. I took the doorknob apart because I needed to know what. You know what was what inside was allowing for this to turn. But I also had to not only take it apart, but to figure it out and put it back. So when they came home, my mother and father at this time was together when they come from work. This doorknob was not apart, and so I had to figure all that out. I did that for that, and I did it for the doorknob, and I also did it for the toilet because I wanted to know how does it flush right? Why does it flush like this when we push the lever? So there was just different things. I was never that I had to do, because I need to see what's inside Like, what is the root? How does things work? What is it? Things like that.
Speaker 1:And after me, talking about it, things like that, and my dad, he is, oh, I don't know if he still is, I don't know. But he what? If he still is, I don't know. But he, what is he? He is an engineer, but he's, um, I think he was an environmental engineer. I don't know if he's still one now and what he is, because I don't know. But talking to him he was like, oh, listen, you want to be engineer. So I was like, oh, I want to be engineer.
Speaker 1:I knew I wanted to do something with building or something, um, like in that problem solving way, um, and so I just knew, by middle school, I was going to be an engineer. I just knew, I. And then, by the time I got to high school, I knew where I wanted to go. I already had, I already knew what classes I needed to take, all those different things. Uh, I went for it up until um, uh, two, let me see, it was in 2009. Was it 2009? Cause my, um, yes, I went for up until about 2009,. I think. Um and uh. So, yeah, but 2009,.
Speaker 1:Because I ran away from accounting, and that's actually this is a whole, nother episode. But I ran away from accounting. God was showing me as a business person. I was like that's not what I want to be. I wanted to be engineer. That's what I said. I'm going to be engineer. Another thing that really see, that's an, I'm going to bring it up. That's another episode. But, yeah, that's another episode. Cause, when I was about to say but that's enough, that's enough, that's another episode. We won't come back to that.
Speaker 1:But, with all that being said, I did not finish school. Let's go back to this. So I didn't finish school to be an accountant and CPA. I knew that's what God was calling me to do and I decided, you know. So I gave up, because I'm not only just trying to get my bachelor's, um, but I'm trying to go to law school and all those things like that, and that's going to take some time and so I feel like this is taking too much time. So I um so, but with all okay. So now, fast forward these years, since the time I said I give up, I did. I said I gave up to everybody. I'm not going back to school. It is what it is. It is, it's done.
Speaker 1:But I come in contact with people. I have started businesses. My husband started businesses, other people have started businesses or had businesses, and just with the little bit of knowledge that I did have and the things that people was just not knowing, and then I would tell them a little bit and they go oh my God, like you know all these things. And then I would tell them a little bit and they go oh my God, like you know all these things. And then I'd be looking at myself like Elisa, you could have helped them a whole lot more had you had your, had you had a degree, had you have these things. And so I'm like, right.
Speaker 1:So eventually, I think in 20, I think 21 and 22,. I was like, ok, all right, it's going to take some time for you to get your degree, but maybe there's some other avenues that you can utilize that you can do without a degree, right. And so I start looking at different things and research and different things, going back and forth. Because that's what, elisa, do? We go back and forth, um, and then I learned maybe I could be something, because someone was called like a life coach. People say you could be a financial advisor or something like that, um, or financial coach or something like that, whatever. And so, and I can integrate it and all like, be a life coach with you know. Well, I just say, oh, one for counseling, because that's what I do anyway. It seems like every time I'm in a conversation with somebody, we, it evolves into a therapy session. I don't know how, but it does, and so, but I can say I can integrate that too.
Speaker 1:So, with all that being said, last year I was going on that path of a life coach and so I began to do the research and figure out. And so I was talking to this one guy who had this program for life coaches, life coaches, coaches, and he it was basic, a basic interview of trying to get a feel if I was good enough for this specific program. Now, mind you, when he, I didn't really want to do the program, I just wanted to know what they offer. I just this is all for research purposes. That was it, cause really I didn't have any money and I knew this program would cost money.
Speaker 1:So he asked me a series of questions that really it really bothered me. So he first was asking me the questions of what is the? What impact would it have on my first, my, on myself, my family, which is, you know, my kids, um, the community, like where I live now and everything else. And then he asking the impact on the world, like what impact on the, on all of this, that if I was a life coach, like what impact what do I see that he can do in each area? Because he did it, it first, first, this first, first, did me first day, he did my kids, like you know, like you know what, what, what he did, what impact would it have financially. What impact would have? Period? That's what he kept asking me. Then he asked the same questions, but in different way.
Speaker 1:So he said what impact would it have financially for you, your kids, and not just financially? First of all, one was just financially. Then it was period, like what impact? Period like what impact? But if you did not become a life coach?
Speaker 1:That bothered me. It bothered me because I never really I don't know, it just made me think and it made me mad. And then he asked after, after I did answer the questions, and then he asked it again at the end of our conversation. And then that's when I got mad. But I got mad at the fact. It's because we know about cause and effect. Right, we do know about cause and effect. But when we don't fulfill our purpose, there's a great impact that we're not just having on ourselves and maybe and not just really for those who have children, because we think about that but for the world, for the world. So you see, he said what impact would it have for yourself, for your kids, for your community and then the world if you do not become a life coach?
Speaker 1:And when we ended that phone call, I just sat there because I was in the car when he called me, because everyone knows I'm always in my car because I'm always doing something and going somewhere. So I was in my car and I sat there for another 45 minutes just speechless. My mind just kept going over like, wow, lisa, like you, if you don't, if you don't get yourself together, the world, like the world needs you, the world needs you. Like I'm really here for a purpose, and when you don't, if I don't fulfill my purpose, I'm the world. We're not. I mean the world internationally, like that is.
Speaker 1:I even know that me being an accountant, that I was going to do something internationally, which is why I definitely want to make sure, like when I couldn't do Temple again and I decided to try to find what school that I was going to go to, they definitely had to have the international business class, because Temple had the international business class in my curriculum and I couldn't wait to get there. But I haven. Then, every time when I was looking for the uh, you know I had before I was all right, see what other school to go to. It had to have international business in the curriculum, because I knew you know he showed me before that I'm not just going to stay here but be, do something internationally. So if I don't be, and that's just that.
Speaker 1:So if I didn't become that, then I'm being like a disservice, like I'm, you know, not just to my children, which that's a big thing, but the world is, the world needs me. The world needs what I have and it has been. Um he got himself has told me God has spoken to me through many people throughout my life about um, that basically I don't know how to say, but the world is basically my arena Right, that I have something that the world needs to hear. Even in me singing, I heard that, even with my voice, which that's another thing right there, because I really don't, I don't know, I don't to me. I don't think that I'm this great of a singer, necessarily necessarily.
Speaker 1:But one thing that I know for sure is that because when I sing, it's that's my, that's how me and God communicate, that's that's how we talk. I mean, it's not just the, the word like the words, but every note, every chord, like this is how he talks to me. So when I'm singing and it's me talking to him and I don't play games, when it comes to that, I don't, I don't play games. We don't play games with it, we don't Cause that's, that's, that's my converse, that's my love language to him. You know, it's like a love song. Every song that I sing is it's like a love song, you know, or whatever, right? So, um, that's what I do.
Speaker 1:So I know that, I know that I don't think I'm the great city. You. You'll never hear me walk out here and hear you people, I mean it's, I'm still working, people. I'm trying to tell you. People ask me can you sing? I'm like, nope, I do. And then I got people slapping me and telling me stop lying, I'll just be looking at them like whatever, but whatever. But I know I definitely, minister, I can definitely do that. We know that, because I don't play games with that. Oh, my God, it's just something I do because that's how we talk. That's all I had, and as a kid, that's all I had. Oh, that's all I had. That was music, was my best friend. I didn't, you know, I didn't Jesus, that's all I had. So, with all that being said, though, really, um, is it? I understand, and I was supposed to say last year, it really, uh, that was last year.
Speaker 1:I still haven't been even finished of the process or the pathways becoming a life coach. But I have often again, once I get that and confirmation through different things and experiences like that, then I start again going back to all these negative thoughts of you know why it's not going to work for me, why, you know, even if I start, it doesn't ever going to be successful. There's many people that start things. They become a life coach. There's many people who have YouTube channels become a life coach. There's many people who have youtube channels, um and a podcast and things like that, and they're not successful. You could just be that right. But who's saying that I can't be successful, elisa and elisa?
Speaker 1:Why you keep telling yourself that you're not gonna be successful? Why do you keep telling yourself that can never happen for you, when there's greatness in you, greatness that you didn't put in yourself? So why are you continue to entertain these thoughts? Why are you creating these thoughts that don't need to create it, instead of just trusting God? All right, god, you put this in me. You show me what to do with it, because I didn't put it into myself, I didn't call myself Right, my purpose. I did not choose my purpose. He created me for a purpose. So why don't you just do it so right? Why don't you just do it so right? Why don't you just accept it and do it? Yeah, there's going to be some bumps and bruises. Yes, there's going to be some failures, but pick up and keep moving, right, just pick it up and keep it moving. That's what we were working on today. This is what we're working on as of today. Working on today this is what we working on as of today. So like, just like.
Speaker 1:So my favorite colors are red and royal blue, right, and so I've been wanting red and royal blue in my hair for a while, right. And every time I said I'm going to do it, something happens. And I could not do it either If I. Every time I go to the hair store, they don't have the colors They'd have the light blue, the powder blue, they have all these other blues instead of royal blue, and so I've been. But then I keep seeing people with royal blue in their hair, and so I get like but I want royal blue, right.
Speaker 1:And so one of the person that I asked that I saw royal and a hair, and I'm sure they probably just got it online, but I don't know why. I just didn't just look online, because I know different vendors to buy from online. I don't know why I just do it, but I didn't. I kept going to these hair stores to get disappointed, maybe because I want it right away and not wait. Maybe that's what it was. And so I asked someone. I said where did you get your hair? Would you get from a specific hair store? Did you really get it online? She told me she dyed it and I was just like hmm, like I don't know if I feel like doing all that work. I don't know if I even have time or patience to do all that work, and then I'm scared if I mess it up. So, but I'm like I guess that's the only way I have to get it, though.
Speaker 1:But my best friend Sheen said I got you, my best friend Sheen, so I did wind up getting online, but the only thing. But Sheen says, listen, I got you and you ain't got to pay. I mean, you're paying less than half of what you have to pay for online. Because, actually, because even I did look on Amazon, but Amazon didn't have just Royal Blue. They had all the blues, but I just wanted just Royal Blue. It was cute, but it's not what I wanted. So, and then I didn't want to buy 10 packs of it, I just wanted to buy one or two packs.
Speaker 1:And she says I got you Right. So she said I got you and I ordered my hair and it's in my head. So I put I. So I have red well, burgundy, cause the red was sold out of my size. So I have burgundy, royal blue and blonde in my hair. The light blonde in my hair. I really wanted the darker, but I didn't have it. So I put it in my hair. My hair is done. I did it the last week of last week, I did it last week. Um, if I said did it two weeks ago, I did it last week.
Speaker 1:And my daughter comes in and says oh, mommy, you are so ready for the 4th of July and I'm like what are you talking about? She's like you're so patriotic and I'm like what? And then she said your hair, I like my hair. That's not what I had it for. I can't find it for the 4th of July. So that was her. She said it. Then my other daughter said it Something similar.
Speaker 1:I go to the stores everywhere, I go outside, whatever. Some people kept saying oh you ready? I love your hair, You're so ready for the 4th. Like, after the 20th person said it, within a few days, I kind of just said all right, whatever, I guess, uh, all right, I guess, okay, I guess this is what it is. All right, fourth of July, liberation. Right, let's just be the month of liberation.
Speaker 1:And also the Olympics, which I love. The Olympics I do. I get excited every uh, four years and um, for the Olympics. I grew up watching Olympics with my mom and my dad and my sisters, and so I get excited every year and I'm very excited. So go USA, right, someone said something about this. The only time that we actually were, uh, during the Olympics, we might even cheer for our countries. Then next, you know, start hating them again. Um, but yeah, so I, I just accepted it.
Speaker 1:It wasn't my intentions. No, it wasn't my intentions. No, it was not. It was not my intention to do it because the 4th of July is coming. That wasn't even in my mind at all, not whatsoever. My mind was these are my favorite colors, I want it in my hair and um, but that? But I just accepted, I just accepted it. Now, if I could do that with everything else in my life, even though things were not my intentions, even though my plan that I had and did not come to fruition, to just accept it and move on from here. Just adjust and move on from here. Just adapt and move on from here. Right, so it's, it's July, we're in July and, yes, we celebrate independence day.
Speaker 1:Now let's not get into all the politics and everything else about America and what we feel like and blah, blah, blah. Let's just think about liberation period. Let's just think about how we want to be free financially, spiritually, mentally. All the elites, we just want to be free. And what is it that is allowing us not to be free? Right? What is it that is hindering us from being free? That keep us stagnant, that is keeping us stuck in a state of staying still? What is it? What are the thoughts that you are entertaining? That is halting your feet to move, your hands to do. What is it? What do you? Are you like me? They go back and forth. Oh, it's never going to happen for me.
Speaker 1:You're looking at everyone else is happening for everyone's, even if you like me, where you say I push everybody else, everybody else, I encourage everybody else. I can see people and they either they come to me, come back to me, or they don't, where they say, hey, you don't want to help me to do this and that, and now they're successful in these areas business, this, that, the other but I'm not doing the same thing for myself, right to any other, but I'm not doing the same thing for myself, right, um? Are you like that too, where you can push everybody else but you can't push yourself where you can't? You don't believe the same things that you tell other people, because that's really the truth is, I don't believe it for myself. He's no respect of a person's but and I always put that, but there is never going to happen for me. This cannot be success, my children, since before I even started. And he's no respect of a person's butt, and I always put that butt there. It's never going to happen for me. This cannot be success.
Speaker 1:My children, since before I even started this podcast, my daughter was saying oh, mom, I just see it. I just see that once you tell your story out there, that someone's going to hear it, and then it's just going to blow up and all these things. And I can't even see that for myself. And they continue to be seeing it for me and I can't see it for myself. I'm so excited when I just see one up, one down. I have more. Every episode and the stats and analytics right has um, more than one Okay, every episode, and I'm expected to know I'm just one, I just want one, right.
Speaker 1:I set the bar low because I know that if that, if I obtain it, that's good. I don't want to really accept the bar. I don't want to set the bar high because then I'm disappointed. And I see, alisa, I told you nothing ever works for you, nothing ever works for you. So it is every, even on YouTube, everything the analytics are, you know, way more than one, five, 10, 25.
Speaker 1:It's just, you know he's doing it, but why do I continue to set the board? I mean, why do I continue to do that, instead of say you know what Cause? I'm not doing this for fame and fortune, I'm really not. I'm doing this because I know that my story can help others. I know that my story has already helped people over here, but it is time for me to, for the world to hear my story, and I know there's people outside of Philly, outside of Pennsylvania and anywhere I that needs to hear my story. There's people in Egypt, Egypt, dubai, you know, europe, everywhere, whatever in the world that needs to hear my story. They needs to know that someone else, um, is like you, that you're not the only one and you can make it, and so I know that I'm not the only one who has a story. I know for sure I'm not the only one who has a story, and so your story has to go out there.
Speaker 1:What can you do? Because he shows us how to do things, even with the money, that we can't do First of all, we in 2024. So, as long as we have a phone, you can make money. It's time out for the excuses, and I'm talking about for a week, because really that's what it is like. It's time I'm just making excuses to stay here, but it means, you know, there's a cause and effect. So it calls an effect just what you do, but it's a call for things that you don't do, because there are people that are assigned to us and that cannot get to where they're going because we are not getting to where we need to go, and so this is why I'm determined to continue to work on myself.
Speaker 1:It ain't really about anybody else, you know, and I'm probably getting on people's nerves as I continue to keep talking. I feel like I'm probably getting people nerves. Um, as I continue to keep talking, I feel like I'm getting people nerves because I keep talking about how much I'm working on myself and a lot of people keep looking at me like, well, what about this person? What about that person? I'm like I don't care about them people, I care about myself. I can't, I can't, I'm not, I can't control nobody but myself and I have a lot on my own plate. So, like, why am I worrying about other people?
Speaker 1:Like I need to get fixed. I need to do the work for myself, because my mind did you hear what I just said? I'm constantly like I got a month's worth. I have a month's worth of podcast episodes, meaning I that I was successful for a month. That's more than I have been with with a lot of stuff. Right, kudos to me. I encourage myself. Then I still find is a way that doesn't mean I'm still going to be successful. That means that you know like what, what's the problem? So I have to work on myself. There's, you know what I mean I have to work on myself. There's, you know what I mean. I have to work on myself. There's evidence in front of me where the success is happening, but I still cannot trust it. Like, what is? What's my problem? At least I need to work on Elisa. We're working on Elisa, that's what we're doing. We're working on Elisa because if I don't, then my children are going to say the same thing.
Speaker 1:My daughters, like my, you know, has I mean all my children. Okay, I'm trying to tell you there's greatness in them, and they have. They already have an entrepreneurial mindset. They always walking around here trying to make money on their own, building their own table to make money. They're not always waiting for someone to do something for them. They do it themselves, they create themselves. Oh, I'm going to create my daughter out here making slime and was up to selling this, selling in on the schoolyard, like they out here. They're not waiting for anybody, but where did they get that from? They got it from us. It's just that they're executing.
Speaker 1:I'm still be like no, no, it's not going to happen. Like no, my kids like no, my kids like no, if I could do it like that. And so why am I fighting that? Right? Why am I fighting it and just say, and instead of embracing that enemy and keep it moving. And if, if people got a lot to say, or you trying to whatever, forget them and just keep it moved, because there is greatest in me and greater in me than greater in me than is he who's in the world Right? And I have to remember that, that I have God backing me up, and as long as I got him, I don't need really need no one else for real. And so, um, if I continue to be obedient to what he is saying and to what he tells me to do, then the outcome is not my job, the outcome is his job. My job was just to be obedient, and so that's what we're working on.
Speaker 1:Is that to to not, uh, you know, continue on with these negative mindsets that I have? Um, and to be liberated, right To be liberated? Uh, this is the month of July. Let's be liberated, let's get liberated, let's get free. Free, let's get free. This be the month, this be the month of freedom, and let's figure out what it is that we can do to get free, because you have it in you.
Speaker 1:I'm not the only one who have things in me. You have it in you too. God is intentional. When he create. He created everybody, whatever they needed to survive to make it. So you have it. It's time to just go and just do so until the next episode. Until the next episode, I want you to get a book right, get a journal Actually, I'm thinking about making some journals.
Speaker 1:I thought about this last week a big clay journal for us to write down these things, to take some notes. I've been giving out stuff and you know I need to take my own notes for the own things I be saying, because sometimes the guy be saying stuff I never thought about. I'd be, I'd be surprised with some stuff to come out my mouth. But let's write down those things that is keeping us from fulfilling our purpose and begin to cross them out. This is what we're working on this week. This we're working on that week. This we're working on right to change so we can change the outcome.
Speaker 1:Okay, we look around for the best get rich quick scheme or whatever to make more money where God's like it's already in your hands to do and you just got to figure out to do whatever love you have. Whether you have no money or no money to go to YouTube university, they will teach you how to do anything, teach you how to do anything on a budget of whatever you have Right. So do what you got to do, do the research you need to do so that we can be free financially, emotionally, spiritually and all the other uh leads, et cetera, et cetera, et cetera, et cetera, et cetera. So, thanks for listening, thanks for tuning in, thanks for being with me on today. I will catch you in the next episode and remember that you are loved.